I know I have been away from blogging...and quite honestly it is something I was never that great at but as we entered 2012 I have done a lot of thinking and I am giving it another try....
These are the days I need to savor and remember. Gretta is two now and I look back and wonder where did this time go. Everyone tells you it goes by fast but there is no way you can prepare for how fast it goes! Life is so busy right now and sometimes I wish I could just push the pause button. I've struggled with the trials and tribulations, the joys and loves of parenting, the hectic lifestyle of being a full time working mom, going to grad school, running a household, and managing our three ring circus (4 if you include Lucy) I feel sometimes I just forget to breathe. I wouldn't change what we are doing to set ourselves up as well as our children, but I can't lie when I say it is hectic.
I would be lying if I said I do not struggle with managing all of this. I often feel I fail at it all. I feel guilty for working. I fail often with being the best mommy I can and training Gretta up in the ways of the Lord. I struggle with the correct way to discipline and which battles are worth fighting with a 2 year old. I feel that I am never caught up on housework and my to do list is never cleared. Just when I seem to get settled and caught up, I have some crazy paper due and I stay up late to work on school work so I am not taking away from Gretta, but my sleep and my sanity suffer. I never have time to just sit and have a normal adult conversation with Matt. I struggle finding time to read my Bible or spend time in prayer.
It often irritates me when there are some moms who seem to have all the answers and balance life perfectly, and I can barely get a healthy cooked meal on the table for us. I just hope this life is hard because I am doing it right and not because I am doing it half heartedly. I hope and pray that 2012 slows down a little so that I can savor the moments and seize the day as I climb that adventourous and courageous mountain of parenting, working, and being a wife.
With my husband by my side, and my girl requesting a hug and a kiss goodnight from her mommy, I thank you Lord for this life. I thank you for these precious blessing, but I pray for strength, balance, and guidance as I walk this road and I pray I am doing it right and in your way.
So here is to 2012, the life of the Borich's.
-Rachel
You aren't alone, Rachel. I always feel like just when I start to get one facet of my life "under control," I realize how much I've neglected another. There is always some part of my life that I am trying to do better... and I'm sure there always will be. I am often thanking God for His mercy that is new every morning... for the fresh start that a new day (or a new year!) can provide. May 2012 be for both of us a year of much growth and learning!
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